revelation

So i just got on my facebook and found out that i have been unfriended. How wonderful! How petty can someone be? Really? Does this person think unfriending me is gonna make me sad or feel bad? Come on?!

R&R

Hello everyone! Today is a good day. We are getting things started. Got a lot of paper work finished and hopefully things will be getting on the roll here soon. Took all morning but hopefully things will be looking up. We should know the result of this morning's efforts in a couple days. Really hoping to know by the weekend so that we dont have to wait until monday. Brandon's dad will be back on Sunday too so our normal schedule of hanging out with our friends should be back on track. I am currently looking at a rediculously large crocheting chart thinking "what did i get myself into?". lol. unfortunately that happens a lot. lol. Allwell. Hopefully it will look nice by the time im finished and she will like it. I have 2 months to finish it. If i dont get it finished by then i need to be shot. It never takes me that long to finish a project. The remaining puppies are just laying around. Theyre all very cute. We sold estellise today. She is going to a family in hagerstown. and older couple who wanted a little doggie. Abbadon is laying at my feet. Ragnar is watching Kirk's every move as he plays games. Nicias is curled up in a blanket. and Vizzini, stacey's puppy, is playing cat on the arm of the chair. But that's just a small update of what's going on. I'm gonna get off of here and get to the crocheting. ^_^

p.s. thanks gma for the flower pot. my cactus looks a lot better!

Silver lining

So thanks every one for the well wishes! Things are looking up. I'm getting things back in order and my life is back on that path that i want it to be. Gonna take some time. I'm hoping that it doesnt take too long. my friends had to wait for 3 years. haha! I would go crazy by then!

But about the job situation, keep your fingers crossed! Hopefully we will find something soon. Walmart here went to being open to midnight so hopefully they will be calling us.

Estellise is for sale if anyone wants her! $100. she's almost a year, spayed, has shots, about 7lbs, and good with other dogs. spread the word too!!!

Like Dust in the Wind...

So everyone in the world has dreams. I've had my share. I thought my dream was to be a chef. I went to a culinary vocational and found that i didnt want to do that as a proffesion. Now not only do i not want to do it as a proffesion, I dont even want to cook for my husband. So i went to school for a cna, thought i could follow my grandma and be a nurse. I wasnt any good at that either. I made it through the classes, got my license, but couldnt find a job. Home health was it and i failed at it. So i went to college for an rn. Thought maybe i could work in a hospital or something. Flunked out. Failed. Then i thought i could be a pet groomer...Found out that i cant get a loan to go to school. Im not good enough for a loan. Now my latest dream........something i've only told a couple people.....and its gone....just gone.....Nothing i've done in my life has been good enough. I cant seem to succeed at anything i've set out to do. I'm doomed to fall into the same path as my mother. I dont wanna be there, but i can only fail so many times before i just dont wanna try anymore. My fight has been taken from me. I no longer want to get out of bed in the morning. There's no reason to. I can only fail so many times before i give up.

life choices

so im having issues again. nothing bad. could be a lot worse. just choices.      



i have currently decided something. over the last couple of weeks or so i have come to find this choice is very important to me. its a complete turn around from whhat i had said before. its something i never thought i would hear myself say. im sure. ive thought it through, ready to go......only problem.......kirk doesnt agree. what am i to do? go along with what i want or try to make him happy? he so rarely tells me no. its even more difficult that its something i find important. what am i to do? im just not sure what to do.

Ok! so finally have internet back! wahoo! had to let it go for a while cause of the no income. Never thought i'd miss something  that much. lol. Kirk is currently playing FF13. I told him if "make me a sandwich" comes out of his mouth that im gonna break all three disks. lol. Im thinking about crocheting. have a couple blankets that i really REALLY should be working on. My nails keep sliding off the keys so i will prob cut them too. its been a while since ive even really been on the computer. So bekah finally for her tax money and we should be going to caselton some time soon. Hopefully i can help her break her fear of big cities. Took her forever to trust me taking 70 to rmond.

but anyways. so the super weight loss thing hasnt gone as planned lol. had to drop my gym membership. but i will try to keep doing somethings at home. right not i am currently eating choc chip cookie dough. thanks so much jp for getting me addicted. ^_^ im prob gonna have to go to the dentist. I didnt get a crown put on the root canal that i had done a while ago and it is now breaking outa my jaw.

estellise is finally outa heat. good since we also have 3 boys. we had to keep her crated for almost 3 weeks. She's also getting better about getting bows put in her hair and walking on a leash without trying to chew on it. she still hates her coat and the groomer. Dont tell her but she is going back in another 2 weeks. And we will keep going until we get all the mats outa her fur that her previous owner aloud her to amass. I refuse to shave her.

So all in all, all is well on beech st. Kirk is happier with his position at work. less pay and he works more hours. but he isnt as stressed. his feet arent wet for 12 hours and he doesnt have to deal with dumbasses. oh and he is back on the night shift too. allwell. i am very excited for him to not be stressed. it was really starting to wear on him.

i got passed up on the job that i had an interview for so i am looking for another. so far, even with the help of unemployment office, i have been able to find nothing.

so yeah. nothing really left to talk about. ttyl!

This is my newest little love, Estellise. I rescued her from an owner who didnt know anything about the breed and wasnt able to care for her like she needed. Im hoping that now her fur will grow in better and she wont get sick. She is a full blooded yorkie. That means a show coat!!! I cant wait for it to grow in. I'm gonna take her to the groomers friday so she can have a sanitary cut and have her nails trimmed, her ears plucked and shaved, washed, DEEP conditioned, paw hairs trimmed, nails painted, muzzle hairs cut, and another cute pony tail put in! So much for only $30! I'm hoping she will do well. She hates it when i put a pony tail in now. lol. Cant have a cute little fluffy girl dog without a pony tail and bows! I know, good thing i dont have a girl kid or i would be torturing her with fluffy dresses and bows and ribbons and the such. But anyways. Gonna go up to rmond at midnight for Kirk to get FF13. He is starting on nights today so he wont be able to go. Kinda sad. I know he enjoys that kinda thing.