Holy Shift!

So its been a seriously long time since i have done anything with this blog. So here goes,

I have been working at petco. Have transfered even since the last time i was on here. Things are going well in that department. I will be starting training soon i think. At least we have been talking about it. Maybe....Someday.... People at work are nice although they yell... a lot. Im working on making new friends and being self sufficient. It's a pretty lonely life if you ask me. Maybe i just dont understand it right or something. Things between Kirk and me arent the greatest. Could be way better. Dont know if they will get back to there but i very much hope so. People keep telling myself that i dont need to set myself up for the disappointment but i like to think that maybe we can work this out and keep our marriage together. The whole situation has pretty much consumed my life for the past month, month +1/2. We have some great times, some good times, but most of the time i feel like he is just playing fake. I really need someone i can talk to about this. I dont really have anyone to talk to who isnt tired or hearing about it or tells me that i need counseling. I dont mind going to counseling, its just crazy expensive. Maybe i need a journal or something. I know i need some project that has absolutley nothing to do with him...but what?

Anyways, that topic is depressing. I'm afraid its ant season again. I just found a couple on that counter. Time to get out the bug spray and yard spikes! what joy! Maybe we can teach the dogs to be ant killing machines. hmm... maybe a nap is in order. seems like all i do is sleep now a days. allwell. at least when im asleep it doesnt hurt so much.